Connie Inglis, de 21 años se animó a mostrar cómo le hizo frente a la anorexia y se convirtió en una activista de la lucha contra la enfermedad por medio de mensajes que promueven el amor propio.
La joven británica publicó una fotografía suya de hace un año y una actual para contarle a sus seguidores lo que consiguió a lo largo de este tiempo y cómo evolucionó desde que comenzó a recuperarse del desorden alimenticio que sufría.
Después de realizar un gran trabajo interno, Inglis sostiene que ahora “ser más delgada y bonita” le importa poco, que si se muere por un chocolate lo que va a comer.
A lot of people have asking me how I did it. How I recovered so fast… the truth is, I didn’t. An eating disorder is deceptive and horrible. It lures you in and makes you believe that you’d be nothing without it, you wouldn’t survive without it. I used to believe my ed was my best friend but all it ever wanted to do was kill me. In the picture on the left I was 13 and had already been struggling for a long time. ? There are 8 years between these photos and in that time I have weight restored and relapsed countless times. I have tormented myself mentally and physically. I told myself I was horrible and unworthy of happiness. I have hated my body. I have starved it, I have hurt it, I have left unmeasurable damage. THIS IS NOT MY LIFE ANYMORE!! After 10 years I finally decided I loved my family and friends more than my illness. I decided that I wasn’t to blame for everything that had happened. I decided that I deserved to be happy!!! So I finally let go… ? If your still struggling I am with you every step of the way. If you’ve been going through this for lifetimes and feel useless when you see others getting better, I completely understand. If you feel like your Ed is still taking care of you, I understand but I promise there are better things out there!!! If your not taken seriously because you don’t fit into the typical anorexia box, your struggles are worthy and you deserve to be helped!!! If your turned away because of you weight, skin colour or gender, FIGHT LIKE HELL!! You deserve to be heard!!! ? I’m not telling you this for sympathy or to diminish anyone’s struggles!! Everyone’s struggles are valid!! But I want you to know that it is possible!! Yes I still have bad days. I still struggle but I’m stronger now and know that I deserve to be happy! Keep going, it’s going to be the hardest thing you ever do but it’s so worth it! Fight like hell and I’ll be fighting with you!! #positivebeatsperfect
Inglis nació en Londres, pero vive en Leeds. Actualmente trabaja en una tienda de ropa y estudia Bellas Artes en el Leeds College of Art. Después de casi diez años de problemas alimenticios, en diciembre del 2015 ingresó de urgencia en el hospital, en un estado que ella misma admite que era “lamentable”.
“Estaba muy enferma y no podía ver qué era lo que mi cuerpo necesitaba, así que luché contra ello”. Fue trasladada a un pabellón para víctimas de desórdenes alimenticios y allí permaneció los siguientes seis meses.
August 2016 #throwback I’ve been feeling pretty overwhelmed today, there’s just so much going on! So I scrolled back though my Instagram to my first ever bopo post! I can’t believe how far I’ve come!!! This is what I wrote: ? ? “I’ve been scared to post this all day! I’m having really bad body image so I’m facing it head on! And I want you all to see that I am not perfect! This is me and this is my belly! I’m in recovery, nearly weight restored but not all the way to healthy just yet! Still got some more of me to come! This belly has been through hell and back… Again and again. It has been starved and empty and fed and bloated. I have stretch marks and loose skin from weight fluctuations. I have permanent lines where my stomach folds when I move. I have scars from the times I was at my lowest and tried to cut my tummy away. But this is me and this is the tummy I’ve got after a life time of self hatred and self abuse so I need to learn that this is my tummy and it’s ok! It’s ok to have scars and stretch marks! It’s ok to have rolls in your tummy! And it’s OK TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF! You don’t have to punish yourself forever for something you can’t change! The body your in is yours and the flaws that it has are yours! BE PROUD OF THEM! Be happy that your still here! Be grateful that after everything you have but your body through, it’s still looking out for you! LOVE YOURSELF ? (via #InstaRepost) ? ? So this is just a little reminder for anyone really struggling to love themselves, it’s so hard but it is possible! And I still take photos to face my fears on my bad body image days! Like the beautiful Gina says ??FAKE??IT??TILL??YOU??MAKE??IT?? (You do not have to post your self love journey online!!! Everyone is different! I started this page as my open diary with only 10 followers!) keep going beautiful people!!! #positivebeatsperfect
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La joven relató que logró vencer la anorexia porque estaba rodeada de gente que la quería. “Mis mejores amigos y mi novio venían a verme todo el tiempo y mis padres estaban allí cada día”.
“Estaban ahí para recordarme que lo tenía que intentar. Así que lo hice”. Hoy Connie se convirtió en una abanderada de la lucha contra la enfermedad.
IT’S OK NOT TO BE OK!!!!!! ??? When your feeling crappy remember that you are SASSY!!! Yeah so I’ve had a hard day today. I’ve done some incredible things, had sushi with my friend, went back to uni, had drinks with a friend… but you know when you just focus on the negatives?! Yeah well that happened. I spent a good hour crying in the centre of town, surrounded by protesters because my mind jumped to conclusions again. And to be honest I think everyone does this! Not just people with anxiety and depression… you know, when you have a good cry because you think someone they love is annoyed at you or even hates you. But when you calm down, take a step away from the situation and think, you realise it wasn’t anyone’s fault. And your ok. And to be honest you’ll always have someone there to hug you! Someone to give you some love! (Even if it is a virtual hug from me!! ??? with added unicorn obviously ?) But yeah I just want you to know that even if your not ok today. Even if your crying in a room full of people feeling alone. You will be ok!! Focus on the positives. Focus on things you love Focus on what’s going to make you feel better (mines pizza and cuddles with my boyfriend) Focus on the people who will be there no matter what! (If you don’t have those it’s ok! I’ll be here) Focus on your family The people you love Work Uni Food Clothes Drawing ANYTHING!!! You can get through this!! And until you can… just remember YOU ARE A SASS QUEEN (or King) AND I LOVE YOU!!! ??? #positivebeatsperfect
⚠️warning ⚠️ if you don’t want to see this girl smash her mental illness, take down diet culture and dance around in her underwear at the same time please look away ? ? ? Just telling ed, depression and diet culture to fuck off ? I’d rather sit here with my food and my giggle thank you very much!?? I mean I’ve spent so many years of my life hating my body, trying to be thinner and more beautiful, avoiding foods that I know I LOVE but told myself I wasn’t allowed. So on days like today where I think to myself “Connie you’ve hardly done anything, put down the chocolate bar” i take a step back and think… you know what?! I’m craving chocolate so that’s what I’ll have! And instead of punishing myself for the squish I do have I’m going to love it instead!! ? ? And this goes for EVERYBODY! The people in the depths of an eating disorder! Bigger people, who would get told they were unhealthy if they posted this. People who believe that they can’t have ‘bad’ food, no food is bad! Just keep it balanced! ? ? I know I’m not fat and I know I’ve got a lot of privilege. But I want EVERYONE to know that there beautiful and worthy of food! No matter how much they giggle!! ? ? But if you still don’t think your allowed, here’s a little note from me to you, you deserve to enjoy yourself! You deserve to eat what you want! You don’t deserve anyone ever telling you that your not good enough for anything!!! Love, Connie xxx #positivebeatsperfect ? ? Just want to say I’m so proud of my girls @joeyspath and @lumalenka for taking Ana down and tackling there fear foods today! (Song- fuck you by Lilly Allan)
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Today is just not my day. I’m struggling with bad body image and all the self doubt. The little gremlin in my head is going strong. None of distraction techniques worked so today I’m simply going to live. And look back at pictures of me being a sass queen and loving my body! I can’t say I love my body today. I’m not going to lie and say that you won’t have days when it all feels impossible. But the thing is.. IT’S OK NOT TO BE OK!!! It’s ok to cry. It’s ok to yell. It’s ok to not have a clue what your doing!! (I mean I have no idea ?) We are all human, we all struggle! So remember that you are never alone in your struggles. There will always be someone there to listen, someone there to rant at, someone there to cry on! (If you don’t have anyone in always here!) So today I’m just sending all my love into the world! And just reminding you that it is hard to love yourself and not every day is going to be perfect but it is possible!! Keep going! We can do this together!!! #positivebeatsperfect ? ? Thank you to my girls @selfloveclubb @selfloveliv @bopobutterfly @aliceandpeanutbutter @kateshappinessjourney @_____halle__
January 23rd 2016- January 23rd 2017 ? ? Firstly I want to say this is not a look how skinny I was or look how well I’ve done post. This is to hopefully show you that no matter how lost you are in your own head, it is possible to escape! It is possible to find happiness again!!! ? ? Secondly you do not have to be this shape, size colour or gender for your struggles to matter! You are always deserving of help if you are struggling!!! ? ? It’s a year ago today since I was sectioned under the mental health act. I was so ill I was doing everything I could think of to not take in ANYTHING. I had given up. My eating disorder had taken over and I wanted to die. So I was sectioned and forced to get better. I was put on an ng tube. I was forced to watch as the scale went up every week and I could do nothing about it. (Not that I didn’t try) I hated everyone who put me through that! I was on drugs that put me out so I wouldn’t hurt myself or anyone else. This time last year I was a mess. ? But the people I loved stayed by me. My best friends and my boyfriend came to see me all the time and my parents where there every day. They where there to remind me to try. So I did. Eventually I asked my boyfriend if it was ok if I ate, he told me I should. For the first time in my life I realised that I loved these people more than my ed. so I fought, I fought like hell!!! ? ? I’m not telling you this for sympathy or to diminish anyone’s struggles, (everyone’s struggle is valid!!! No matter how long it takes!!) I was in this for 10 years before I got out. But I want you to know that it is possible!!!!! No not all my problems have gone away. Yes I still have the thoughts. But I am strong enough now to resist! Keep going! You can get through this hell and I will be with you every step of the way!!! We can do this together!!!! ??? (I don’t want to answer any questions about weight) #positivebeatsperfect
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Posed vs relaxed! These pictures where taken seconds apart but look how much my body changes! In the first picture like a lot of the pictures that you see online, posed and tensing. In the second picture I had to undo my jeans button to sit with my tummy out ? But I’m ok with that! Bodies move! Bodies change. But both of these bodies are beautifully me!! A lot can change in the pose you take or the clothes you wear but all your bodies variations are beautiful! We don’t walk around as still images, we move, we squidge, we grow, we change. Everyone does and that’s beautiful in itself. Your body is a forever changing work of art. You might not like it now but tomorrow might be better and maybe in a few months you’ll be able to stop, look at you reflection as you walk and think “when did I turn into a goddess?!” And can I tell you something? When that day happens remember… you always have been you just couldn’t see it! #positivebeatsperfect #selflovebootcamp ? ? Oh and I absolutely LOVE my new hair!!! Thank you @sassoonsalonuk love my colourist she’s amazing!!! ?